I'm through with all this self rightous pity
where blame lies on everyone else but me
I'm done with the world crashing all around
it's time to put my feet back on the ground

I can't live this way
I'm tired of living in denial
I can't breathe this way
where I don't feel like Your child
I don't want to go one more moment
feeling like You're far away
so, please Lord, forgive me today

How awesome is your presence
how awesome is your love for us
how amazing is everything you do

I cry out to you
when the darkness surrounds me
I cry to you
when the world is aglow
I cry to you
when theres nothing else I can do

How merciful was your sacrifice
how merciful was that highest price
how amazing is everything you do

How amazing is your love
how amazing is your strength
I'm in awe of all you do

I was searchin' for a place
that I never had found before
I knew I would never be whole
unless I lived for something more

but I didn't know
what I needed inside
was something perfect and pure

and I didn't know
when I ran to hide
I was running away from the cure

You stayed with me
you set me free
now I can see
that the chains are gone
I'm not alone
I've found life
I can survive
because I've found you

life is so much better now
than it ever was before
now I have Your breath of life
I have need for nothing more

Now I really know
what real love really is
it's perfect and it's pure

Now I really know
I don't have to hide
because I have found the only cure

How many times have you strayed into the darkness
trying to find a way out of the mess your in
not knowing where to turn for help
or how to see the light again

How many times have you been stubborn
insistent on doing things on your own
as if you can carry
a ten ton bag of stones alone

You think you are being so independent
when really you are drowning inside
but I can see through to the pain
that you think your facade can hide

What good is it to be strong by yourself
when you are just getting by
dragging along each day
too numb to cry

Is it fair to yourself to hide your heart
to guard yourself so much
that you can't even open up
enough to feel God's touch

Take me to Your hiding place
take me to Your grace
take me to Your holiness
I want to feel You in this place

'cause I'm feeling broken
I've fallen on my face
and all I can do
is turn to you
and ask you to
pick me up again

I've come so far, so far
I could jump for joy
You've been here, so near
all along this journey

And I
know You'll stay
and You will
be the same
and I will follow You
because You want me to
and I am Yours
oh, oh

Life's been so dark, so dark
for many a year
but You're the constant light
shining so bright

Lost on this road
and I was
carrying this load
it was the weight of the world
on my tiny shoulders
but You
You came along
and my burdens were gone
and all I can do
is thank You

How can I feel so empty
when I'm supposed to be full of you
yet I lay here crying
not knowing what I should do

The farther I feel from you
the farther you drift away
losing the power of the words
that I always used to say

I've lost all my control
because I had to take control
instead of letting you drive

And all of this wrestling
has taken its toll
and I feel less and less alive

the fire is gone inside
and I know I need to seek shelter in you
but my own will prevails
and I keep saying I don't want to
even though I really do

Please, God, just take my will
rearrange my inner face
that has turned to the wicked
instead of your grace

I often times wonder exactly what your plan may be
What my future holds, and what You want from me
I don’t have the answers to the questions in my mind
But I have faith that through these trials
There’s a strength that I might find

So I wait and listen for the still small voice
The whisper that comes in the midst of all the noise

You have a plan for me
I don’t know what it is
Whatever I’m to be
I’m always to be His
And though the good times come and go
In You I’ll always know
That there is a way through
To everything that’s true

Where do you start when you can’t find the door?
Where do you go when you don’t know what you’re looking for?
Where do you begin
When all you see is the end
Of another day?

I’m not sure if I’m listning to You or me
Telling me who I’m to be
I don’t know if its Your guiding hand
I guess I just don’t understand
How you could choose me to be placed in front of the crowd

I feel so unworthy of this
So unsure of myself, so insecure
Knowing Your will for me
Fighting to keep from running away
From the battle inside my head

What am I to do, oh Lord?
Is it really me You want out there
Imperfect as I am?

I can never understand Your ways
I guess I have to trust You and obey
The things that you’d have for me to do.

It’s time for me to be brave
To put on my new face
And to begin this new calling
This new step of faith.

I know I have to do Your will
I know that sometimes I have to listen and be still
To hear the words you say to me
That I may do as You see.

Just guide me down this unknown path
For I can’t see yet where it leads.
Let me do what you ask of me
Protect me and fill all of my needs

bright lights
shine on my face
is it the light of forgiveness?
or the light of disgrace?

revelations
of things I've done
make me uncertain
if the battle is won

I don't know
if I can grasp this
A million things I feel
infinate things I've missed

I've done all this before
ten-thousand times over again
it's too much to understand
and not worth it to defend

who do I blame for this
does it belong to another?
ultimately it's mine
I must own it, and recover.

When I've walked my final steps
and breathed my last
when my days on earth are gone
and my life is passed
will I have left behind a legacy
something for the future to see

what is my impact
did I change the world
did I make a difference
to one boy or girl

I hope that when
my days here are through
the Father says, "Well done!"
"My child, I love you."

I keep this thing
locked in a chest
and it only comes out
on a sad occasion

I guard it well
never letting on it's there
making the outside beautiful
as the storm rages
within its walls

My failures consume my mind
like a fire they make me blind
I can never be good enough
my best isn't best enough

where has all my hope gone
that faith that used to be so strong
I never thought I'd lose it all
and lose myself within the fall

I can't deny You're there
and I know You care
but why can't I feel it in my heart

I can't deny that You're there
and I know You care
but I'm alone
and we're drifting apart
I'm crying out in the dark

I stumbled today
and now I can't
find the words to say
I'm sorry
forgive me
can I be new again

Why do I stumble
Why do I fall
Why do I put myself thru this
stumbling, falling down

sometimes you've gotta fall
to hit your knees again
to breathe again
to ask for forgiveness
and go on again

Woke up this mornin'
to the same face I see everyday
look at my reflection
grab my bag and head on my way

sometimes I get so distracted
so ashamed by the way that I've acted
sometimes I wish I could start all over again

Chorus:
And start it out right
the way that I should
down on my knees with You
let you take flight here in my life
and be in control of me
starting on my knees

Woke up this mornin'
on the wrong side of the bed
still mad about the things
that my best friend did and said

sometimes I'm so quick to anger
can't believe I told her I hate her
sometimes I wish I could start all over again

Chorus

Why can't we stop
and just take a minute
and let God spend time with us
Why do we gotta be so wrapped up in ourselves?

Chorus

I'm so caught up
tangled in a web of emotion
and feeling things I don't understand

I don't know why
I feel like I'm stuck inside
but I have hope in Your perfect plan

'cause I know
no matter what the outcome
I'll be alright

Chorus:
You hold the answers to the mysteries around me
You know the future and the present that surrounds me
it's true
the answer is in You

Sometimes I fall
I trip on all the clutter
and make a mess of all You've made right

no matter how I try
I'm not a perfect girl
I'll never live up to the expectations placed upon me

but I know
no matter my mistakes
I'll be OK

Chorus

Holy Spirit come and fill this place
may our hearts welcome You in
You are our lantern
let us walk in Your light again

You're the healing that makes us whole
You're the embrace that warms our heart
open our hearts to be filled with Your love
send us Your presence from above

Holy Spirit come and fill this place
may our hearts welcome You in
You are the oil for our lantern
let us walk in Your light again